My Confession
I used to do things that I love to do, at my own pace and care less of what others said. I don’t care about appearance even though I don’t fit in, I was truly in my own bubble but driven to do wonders.
However I’m very different now, I was a late bloomer and afraid to be left behind as my peers moving forward. I’m trying so hard to fit in, not by faking myself into, but by having big ego to please myself.
I’m smart not stupid, and certainly wasn’t that wise of a person. I thought I’ve grown up maturely, instead my ego was expanded.
People always say and think that I’m younger, I was trying so hard to say my true age. And now I know why, my age doesn’t define my maturity. I’m acting like an angst teenager.
I’m a hyperactive person and that’s actually my true self, jumping around because I’m both happy and sad. I should shed that BIG EGO of mine, I want to learn together with my peers. And that’s the fun I get by working with them.
Let’s get proactive Susi, and not afraid of good criticism. I know it hurts, but it’s part of learning process and don’t take it too personally. Love me or hate me, that doesn’t matter, we’re humans after all.
